If I could escape

Oh, I didn't know there was a term for those who had managed to avoid getting Covid for all these years. Super dodgers. I must admit, I was feeling kinda invincible, hehe. Feeling all special. Boohoo! Well, my symptoms started off mild. Then other symptoms sprung up. Shortness of breath, heavier cough but was now productive, bad nausea...ugh. It feels like everything is finally easing up. Still feel like something is in my chest. When I try and clear my throat....it takes a lot of clearing. Hehhe. All the phlegm! I will probably test again in the next day or two. Hopefully it will be negative. There is so much that needs to get done. And to think, before Covid turned its ugly head, I was thinking about what I will do to fill up the two weeks prior to Little Bit starting school. And here we are, stuck in the house. My poor girl probably going a little stir crazy. We went to Wal-Mart to do a curbside pickup. I went to a store nearby and parked in the shade, far off from other vehicles to double check and see if all the right stuff was in there before I drove all the way home. I have been burned before so I learned my lesson. I took Little Bit out so she could stretch her legs while I sifted through the groceries. She had a conniption fit, wanting to walk towards the store. Aww. Poor thing, all she has seen has been the inside of the house and the front yard.
That should be changing soon. And with us being in the bigger city on a regular basis, I can do more things with her. Of course, that depends on financials! Pyro told me he had a coworker that drives from that city to his work. Geez! Sacrifice. I dunno why he does it, but Pyro definitely wouldn't. I told him about how we should get an apartment in the city. The ones I suggested to him are very nice and close to Little Bit's new school. He went on some paranoid rant about how he didn't want to be charged if some robber came and he shot him to protect the place. Using some case in California as an example. Some robber broke into a home, hurt himself, sued the homeowner and won. He said something about it being a nanny state. I can't say I know the guns laws and home protection around here, but I seriously doubt that would be allowed in Louisiana. I asked if he knew if Louisiana is a nanny state and he said that it isn't, so why the hell even bring up a scenario that is not even a real issue. *rolls eyes*

Then I suggested since he is planning to leave his job, to go ahead and search for something a bit closer. There is a city right on the border to Texas that is close to the bigger city in Louisiana. He babbled something about the company he is currently at MIGHT become bigger. Ahem...this echos of the last job he was hell bent on staying at to "move up" and that didn't happen. So, you're staying on a maybe? Like you sacrificed all those years on not even a small chance of moving up at the old place. He said no, he is willing to leave. Just don't want to burn a bridge. Get things good with his bosses or something or another. For one, he said these bosses are moving on to other companies. What difference does it make to be in good with them if they won't even be there if you decide to return? And besides, if you are leaving to be with your family, how in the world will they fault you, hold that against you? Ugh, it shows his priorities are still fawked. I told him all that he is saying is once again sounding like sorry excuses that he has been using. And even he acknowledges that it does. Just when I thought we would TRY and bring our little family together. *shakes head* I don't even care to include him in future plans anymore. I have been thinking a lot about being an expat in another country. Of course, this will have to wait until Little Bit is older and can have back and forth conversations. Maybe she can even help me choose where we should go!

I will probably just make the drive every day to the new school. Maybe take a break here and there and get a hotel room. I don't know if adding an apartment and all the utilities of that to my current situation is for the best. I have thought about it though and I will babble more about the pros and cons on that next time.

Signed,
Tarja Mordecai